cause you’re my heart heart heart heart HEARTBREAKER

wow i just read over the most recent of my logs…
that stufff is pretty deep
haha i laugh at how much i try to make it so that no one can tell who im talking about…
or what im talking about for that matter

you know? after reading that stuff…those feelings came bak again…
wow…that was so long ago…but i never knew
reading today would make me think bak
dang regrets
somehow it seems poetic no?
hahahah
type-o it was in october…not november…
october 11th to be exact

wowww that was so long ago huh?
do you know how long it toook?
when if finally ended i dont even know…

when you asked me to go
i didnt understand why it would be
you said it would be up to fate
but was it really fate after all
it seemed as if your motif was someone else
but why wasn’t she the one you chose as fate
was it because she was already someone else’s
and at last it would be either me or nothin
i keep thinking about that wish i made
in OCTOBER
outside suchi roku
with the beautiful 6pm nightsky
and the trees
at that time, it was for both of us
but knowing that it would never be
it was for you
11 11
i made that same wish
not sure who it was for
im sorry
i know for sure now that it was my fault
you didnt have a good time like you hoped
i hope you had a fun time tonight

dude i cant finish it…
GAHHHHHHHHHHHH
its gone

on another note
RETREAT WAS AWESOME 😀
i never realized how much GOD loves me…SO MUCH
ITS OVER 9000!~
fosho
<333 FATTIES AND CHC
^ the way henry spells it
cause im the fattie president

TODAY WAS AWESOME 😀
JAM SESSION WITH TUBBY AND 哥哥!!
<333
i wish i could worship 24/7

i want to go into music
like uncle eray 😀
dang chem major
ORCHESTRAAAAAA
muSIC IS MY LIFE